Just to Let You Know

All right, blogger friendlies. It's been awhile, so I thought I'd let you know: I'm down to 179 (woohoo!) I just went mega-clothes shopping, and I fit into the clothes. Oh, and I've totally been eating. Like, enough. Breakfast, and usually a really big lunch to last me the rest of the day. I'm still working on getting enough self-control to eat a small lunch and small dinner, but for the moment, it's easier just to eat one bigger meal. And a small breakfast, too!
Things are going pretty well, I can't wait to go home, though. :) My goal is to lose a few more pounds, so that I can pig out the first week or two that I'm home and not feel bad about gaining. :)

Woohoo!

Down to 185!
Isn't that awesomesauce? Alright, maybe I'm not at the 183/2 ish I was supposed to be, and maybe I won't make it to a healthy weight by september, but I shall not give up hope! :) Or give up trust. Because Abba loves me, and I love Abba. And really, looking great is only so important.
But it is a nice feeling, right?
MWA!
Sophie Ellen
Oh, right.
STATS: Pounds: 185 BMI: 27.3
Yeah, from 237 pounds to 185, from a BMI of 35 to 27.3, glory to God! Through him, I can do all things.

OMG REVELATION GUYS OMG!

Alright, do you want to hear something amazing?
In one month, I lost one pound. I starved, I exercised, I ran around in circles to lose weight.
Last fall, in 3 months, I lost 30 pounds.
What's the difference?
Well, for one, I was obese, and it's always easier to lose weight when you're significantly overweight. But that can't account for the whole thing, right? I mean, losing roughly a third of a pound a day to losing nothing? nada? zilch?
Yeah. Something's wrong.
So....... I'm going to try something. Something every weight-loss wannabe is afraid to try. I'm going to give a big, resounding,
FUCK THIS.
I may sound angry (gee, wonder why? :D) but I'm not. I'm free! I want to lose weight, I have plans to lose weight, and I will lose weight. Just watch. But I'm going to do it like a real, rational, sane, human being. I'm going to do it like the French.
What?
Heck yes. I'm going to EAT, baby, and I'm going to LOVE IT.
Three months when I lost 30 pounds, and barely noticed because a large amount of it was effortless. Just living in France did that. So...
This blog is turning over a new leaf. I will be fabulous, I will be a healthy weight. That's my goal, because why bother trying to kill myself for an ideal that I can never really get to without being miserable? I love food, I do! But I don't love masses of excess, and I don't love scarfing down a mcdonalds double quarter pounder with cheese because it's lunch time and I 'suppose' I'm hungry.
No. I will make food deliberate. I will enjoy treats. I will eat cheese, and I will eat chocolate. I will order desert.
But I'll do it in moderation, the type that doesn't exist in the USA.
And I'll enjoy it. Anyone want to join me?
Be jealous. Be very jealous.

So... plan?

Alright, juice fast ish sort of thing going on.
Orange juice for breakfast. Tomato juice for lunch and dinner?
Not going to elaborate, but we'll see how it goes.

Again, sorry...

I'm not going to be online for awhile. I'm reboosting my metabolism, which means I'm eating more so I can lose more later. We'll see if it works?

This time...

I am actually dead. Kidding, but not really. Still at 190, feeling desperately unworthy to call this a 'weight loss' blog, feeling like some stupid teenager who made her life sound more ambitious than it really was.
Still, God has given me a beautiful day, and even if I never lose this pound, I've still come so far. But I will, I trust. Anyway, I'll check back when I actually start losing again.
Sophie Ellen

My Eyes Hold More Secrets Than My Lips

Salt-water flushing it. First time ever, about 3/4 of the way through with fifteen minutes to go before I have to lay down for half and hour. Stopping blog now!
(By the way, this is disgusting)
Sophie Ellen