Oh my mother... part 2.

Okay, so I was GOING to be good at lunch, but then mom got mad at me. "If you're not going to eat it, we should've just stayed home and saved the money!"
ACK. I TRIED to get her to eat a subway sandwich with me, but she wouldn't. Ah well. That was this afternoon, and now I'm majorly desiring food. Like... lots of food. Oreos. Cheese. Popcorn. Apple Pie. The whole deal. But I have to be good, don't I? I mean, isn't that sort of what the point of this whole losing weight thing is? So I need a defense tactic. I DO know that the best way to get rid of cravings is to eat just a bit of whatever it is you want, but I want so many different things, none of them healthy, that I'll end up killing myself with calories.
So, I'm thinking... obviously lots of water. Then, perhaps, some more water. And tea, tea is good. I'll have an oreo, probably. Maybe a carrot. Mom just suggested tuna, which I might go for - it's good protein. And I'm starving, so that might be nice.
Big question of the night; can I avoid cheese? I'll tell you what, it's not a question. I simply will not give in to cheese. I will not.
*phew* I feel better.
So... another question. Shall I be able to survive carrot without dressing? I love dressing. :(
*ACK*
The good thing is, all this obsessing almost makes me want absolutely nothing at all. Let's keep on, shall we? *goes to get more water*
On my expedition, I learned that A) the dressing is WAY more calories than I'm willing to eat and B) I can't find the oreos. Ah fate, how good you are to me. But I'm needing sweet, so I might have a different kind of cookie. Or just chocolate, if I can find any. Maybe.
Alright, so, I've narrowed it down to tea, water, and tuna. I'll probably have a cup of chai also, providing that I don't binge on sweets. Oh, and the carrot.
Is that good? Is that bad? I think, given how badly I want food, it's good. Hopefully boredom will prevent me from also having popcorn, although we do have 100 calories portions, which I shouldn't feel too bad about.
Love you all!
Sophie Ellen
(Oh, by the by, I'm back to 198)

It seems like forever...

But I guess it was yesterday that I blogged- day before? Whatever, not much new happenings to report. The scale DID read very low today, but I've been up since then, so I'm not sure I believe it - though I did weight twice, just to make sure. Since I'm an optimist, I'm going to say it's correct, especially since I ate next to nothing yesterday. Not a diet I recommend, by the way. But I'm well on my way of meeting my goal at the end of January.
I wish I had something interesting to say, but today has been a hungry, cranky day. Sorry loves, I wish I could say something else, but there you are. I didn't even exercise much, because I was feeling depressed. Maybe it's the weather... excuse #458. Ah well.
Stats: Pounds: 205 BMI: 30.3
Sophie Ellen